I just saw a man jump in front of an approaching subway train last Wednesday. Until now, I actually have no idea if the man who jumped actually got hit by the train or whether he died or just got injured after that incident since I was walking at the same direction as the approaching train. And everything was so quick as the train tried to slow down when it was too late and a middle-aged man suddenly screamed as he covered his ears and walked quickly away from the platform. Of course, I just stood there as, despite how selfish this might sound, I really needed to go to school for my last and most important exam. The TTC workers asked us all to quickly leave the platform, and I had to go to school by bus. But I wasn't actually late since I had planned to go to school an hour early to fully prepare myself for the exam.

Of course, everyone didn't complain about being late for work or school and all, which is what we usually do when we're late because of public transportation, especially after what just happened. Of course, while I was riding the bus, I couldn't concentrate that much on studying especially after what I saw. But I guess I forgot about the whole thing once the exam started since I was just worrying about finishing the whole exam within two hours (Our teacher is sadistic as he puts a lot of material in the exam and expects us to finish it all within the two hours that we only have).

I think the man who jumped in front of the train was really trying to kill himself since he jumped as soon as the train passed by. I am guess ing that these kinds of things (suicide attempts) usually happen at the subway.

Even though I love watching the classics (both Hollywood and foreign), I am not a conservative person who misses the old-fashioned values. I just think that being a film snob buff and all, I should watch all kinds of films, from the 1910s to the present, from the silent films to the film noir to the musicals to the arthouse films to the cult films to the most recent films. Watching only films from the years 1990s and 2000s is boring; there's not much variety and diversity. And watching only Casablanca doesn't mean you have seen everything that films have to offer either. Although it has its fair share of hits and misses, I still do think that Hollywood hasn't been the same as before especially compared to its Golden Age.

Even if I love a lot of old classics, not only from Hollywood but also from other countries, I still feel annoyed whenever I see stereotypical depictions and misrepresentations of women and minorities in film. But then again, even though we live in modern times where women and men are treated equally (or so they say but I don't agree from what I see in the media and society) and where visible minorities are treated equally, I still see that Hollywood (as well as the media in general) is still guilty of its bigoted, prejudiced, and narrow-minded beliefs (Remember the psychotic working woman in Fatal Attraction?) even though it might not be as obvious as before (i.e. the blackface acts that people back then thought were entertaining and women being portrayed as mere housewives and secretaries).

I should complain for having only two shifts a week at McDonald's. They just hire more employees and let us all have 1-2 shifts a week. That doesn't make sense. That only just pays for bills, in my case my weekly routine of renting DVDs. At this rate, I won't be able to save money and I would only be able to spend money I earn each week on renting DVDs for each week. It's a good thing that my parents don't let me pay for my own transportation expenses (I get to use the family's monthly Metropass most of the time) even though I sometimes pay for my sister's weekly allowance.

If I weren't volunteering 32 hours a week (!), they would probably give me more shifts and I would be able to work more and earn more.