We just moved in to our new home last Friday :D. We still have some more arranging, unpacking and cleaning to do especially in the basement but the house really looks great and comfortable. My only problem with the house is its location and how far it is from both the bus stop and the college school I go to >_<. And it's a pain in the ass to use different buses at different times of the day.

I am currently reading Jane Eyre (as recommended by Micah). It is a good read but my vocabulary is so limited that I can't understand half of the words in the whole book and I just have to find context clues in order to understand the words I don't know of. But I really like how the author Emily Bronte writes. It's so unique and almost indescribable and even though she writes in prose, there's something poetic in the way she describes people, situations and places. And Jane Eyre is such a lovable and charming character. Her straightforwardness, her honesty, and her admiration of Miss Temple, the school superintendent and a poised, mature and kind woman of power, add to her appeal. Jane Eyre is a character who is way ahead of her time.

I just finished reading The Handmaid's Tale a week ago, and that novel is such a frustrating and aggravating book to read not because it is dull but because the devastating, ugly and undesirable world the characters live in in this novel is something that no one would want to happen in our world in the future. The novel shows what would happen when conservative, anti-feminist and totalitarian beliefs are put to the extreme.

In this dark and hypocritical setting (I believe it is set in America), wars are going on and men and women are being hanged for going against the strict and inhumane rules and being put on display to put fear amongst others. But the ones who are most affected by this terrible situation are the women. The women are suppressed and are only given limited choices and less freedom. It has been a ridiculous belief by most conservatives and anti-feminists that women are only good for childbearing, childrearing and housekeeping, and the heartless and faceless rulers of this society have made sure that this belief would be applied. See, I told you that the issues of this novel are really devastating and painful to even think about. The novel is as tragic and painful to read as the satirical novel Animal Farm yet they are both quite interesting. But I definitely recommend this for awareness purposes.
 

"Hi, um, Scotty, it’s-it’s Kevin, your least favorite Martian. Look, I’ve been on your planet for 34 years and I still get a lot of things wrong like about, um, money and work and people and life and love. Everything. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I think you’re amazing and funny and cute as hell and I just hope that someday, I don’t know, maybe three Martian years from now because our years are longer than yours, maybe I could be worthy of your human love and respect, whether we’re together or not. That’s all." (Brothers & Sisters)

Heehee, my sister and I are having a Brothers & Sisters marathon <3. I learned about the TV series from my friend JC. I can't get enough of the series especially now that I have promised myself to start downloading movies again after my midterm exams. Awww, I am so jealous of the relationship the Walker family has. The brothers and sisters, as well as the mother, are so close to each other, are always there for each other and still keep in touch with each other almost everyday (not only on special occasions) even though they are already on their 30's and 40's. No secrets can't be kept from each other because of how close they are, and the siblings tell their problems, feelings, secrets, etc. to each other just like best friends. They kind of remind me of the close relationship that my mother has with her three sisters but the only difference is that the Walker siblings fight and argue too much. And I can't help but feel empathy and love towards all of the characters even towards Holly, the other woman of the late William Walker. It is as if I have known them my whole life even though I have only been "introduced" to them last Saturday. The character whom I really care less about would be Justin but he's not that bad at some episodes.

Now if only school wasn't so much of a disturbance and an annoyance, I would watch the whole first season whole day long with my sister XD. School really ruins spare time and recreational time :P.

I have had hard time breathing since April, I believe. I think it started during my vacation and it got worse at times. It's just that I sometimes need to gasp or sigh (as my family doctor puts it) for more air. It's not as worse as before but it's still there. And the doctors thought it was either asthma or panic attacks. And after trying those asthma medications, I knew that it wasn't asthma. Well, until now, they aren't sure what it specifically is since I really have hard time describing the way I feel when that happens and how often does it happen but I think my condition is leaning more on anxiety attacks. I am a very anxious and nervous person, and I worry and easily get tense over small stuff such as job interviews, group presentations, and almost anything that involves public speaking and speaking to others. I always keep telling myself to change that side of mine but it's not that easy. It's easy to change one's habits and traits but it's not easy to change someone's way of thinking.

I just browsed through the book I did for English during my 2nd year high school. And I just keep thinking to myself how awful it was. And it makes me laugh and feel bad at the same time. I know I could have done better. I could have made it more original, more organized, neater, etc. And the book just reminds me of my bad taste in music, books, movies and TV shows before. Plus the title I made for the book is so childish and lame, and I am so embarrassed to even mention the name of the title XD. If I am given another chance to write a book like that about anything now and if I can forget that I made an awful thing like that first book of mine, I will do something different and not do just an autobiography. Or if I were given a chance to go back to the past, one of the things that I'd do would be creating a better first book, something that I can treasure and be very proud of :D. Then again, that's just pure talk :P.